(Warning: Self-indulgent blog, lots of words. No pictures. My apologies.)For some reason when I entered the blogging world, I felt I could only write about funny things. I had to have a funny blog. The problem with this? Sometimes in life we don't feel funny, and then we have nothing to blog about, and then our mom tells us we need to step up the blogging. Fine mom, get off my back already! My blog is going to stop being polite, and start getting real.
It's no secret that I freak out over my birthday every year. Getting older is apparently traumatic for me. Each year for 10 months I am my normal, happy, non-crazy self. And then, around the end of April, I turn into a person I don't always recognize, who does things I would never do, and says things I would never say. She is out of control!
(Except I did do those things. I did say those things. Gulp.) This year I have decided to put my foot down, and put the crazy lady back in her cage. In my deep, psychoanalysis of my own brain, I came up with a few solutions, one of which is to recognize how truly blessed I am, and to have gratitude for my life. I mean, let's be honest, my life is kind of awesome. And, lucky you, you get to hear about it. For the next 15 days.
(Because 30 seemed like too many.) Today we start with the core, I am grateful I have an amazing family who feel like great friends and amazing friends who feel like they are family.
I have an amazing family. I have parents who are All Stars, who have raised me in a home filled with love, laughter, and most importantly, the gospel of Jesus Christ.
(Running family joke: Walk into any LDS church, yell out "I know Dave Walker", and the response will be "He's such a nice guy!" followed by a handshake.) I have four siblings who not only do I love, but I like. And, they get my jokes
(for the most part). And, I am the aunt to 4 nieces and 3 nephews, all of whom happen to worship the ground I walk on. Apparently, their parents have raised them right. Not to mention all of my extended family. I have aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents who surround me and love me and support me. One thing I can never doubt, I am loved.
I have amazing friends. Life-long, soul-mate type friends. Friends who are willing to boycott Blockbuster just because I had a bad experience. Friends who are not afraid to call me out when I need it, but who support me no matter what. Friends that can carry on conversations about world events or the
magical powers of unicorns with the same depth and level of enthusiasm. Friends I know I can call at 2am because I need them. And, friends who know I would do the same for them.
Probably sounds weird to say, but I am excited to be me again.